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Does Size Really Matter? – Deciding On A Health Facility


Memorial Sloan Kettering.  The Mayo Clinic.  MD Anderson.  University Of Pennsylvania.  The list goes on and on for the top hospitals when it comes to cancer treatments.  There is a different list of facilities when it comes to heart surgeries, pulmonary issues, and so on.  Many of our nations “best” hospitals are “teaching” hospitals, meaning that they are more likely to have the current diagnostic tools and treatments available.

I have taken quite a few moments to decide what hospitals to be taken too, of course ulitmately, I am at the hands of my wife to honor my wishes.  The closest hospital to us just also happens to be the last hospital in the world I would ever want to be taken to.  It has the worst reputation for cleanliness and sterility, in other words, you have a fairly good chance of going home with MRSA.  The longer you stay in that hospital, the better the chances of contracting MRSA.  So it is not necessarily a good thing if a hospital keeps you longer to recover from whatever took you there.  The reason that my wife insists on taking me there?  It is the only way that my daughters would be able to come and visit with me as transportation time alone would be an additional hour and a half.  On a school night forget it with having homework.  So, in that regard, I appreciate being local.  It is a smaller hospital, which recently had been bought out by a larger network, still not on the national level, but the buyout has been expected to improve the quality of the local facility.  I am just not sure that it has.

When I dealt with my Hodgkin’s Disease, I was not really aware of all of the “big” network and teaching hospitals available to me.  I did believe that if I were to go to any of them, besides the great distance, I was not sure that they could give me emotionally what I was going to need, that I would be treated just as a number.  Personally, I needed more than that.  The doctor that I chose worked out of a small network, but more importantly, as all cancer patients probably had the oppportunity for this, I knew a patient personally that he cured, my grandmother.  Granted, she was treated for breast cancer, but he saved her life, he could save mine.  The big risk I took by doing this, he was an older doctor, so there was a chance that I would be treated with older modes of treatment and not the most current available.  But I believed that if I had the confidence in him, I would have confidence in the medicine, and that would get me through.

At various points in my life, I would end up in the hospital and always felt comfortable with the hospital that I grew up near.  It has become quite the network and one of the best in the country.  So when I had some uncontrollable bleeding from an area that no man ever wants to see blood coming from, it was only natural that I went to that hospital.  When it was determined that it was not cancer or cardiac related (yes, blood in the urine can be attributed to a valve issue with the heart), but rather a kidney stone, how quickly that stone situation got resolved depended on where the roaming kidney stone unit was and what day.  Yes, hospitals in my area do not have their own “lithotripsy” machine.  The first time that it would be back at this hospital would be in approximately two weeks, however, it was going to be back in town the coming Tuesday at a hospital that I swore I would never set foot in ever again.  My grandmother had passed away in that hospital, and while it was not their fault as to the cause of death, I did have a problem with their methods of convincing people the importance of extending their terminal lives at the expense of their dignity.  As far as I was concerned, this hospital tortured my grandmother during her dying days.

But for anyone who has ever had a kidney stone, or gall stone for that matter, no one will deny the pain level to drive a six foot 300 pound giant of a human being into a fetal position in pure pain, than a 4mm stone.  I needed to have this resolved before the stone set to travel from my kidney.  I was going to have to have the lithotripsy (shock-waving the kidney stone into obliteration), at this hospital.

Now let me tell you about how small this hospital is.  I was the first scheduled appointment that Tuesday morning.  Now remember, this is a fully functioning hospital.  It also evidently has hours of operation.  So the security guard unlocks the door at 5:30am precisely, and I am already third in line.  I cannot see what is happening, but I do see a lot of head-shaking.  Just like that, I am called to the receptionist and begin my admission, or the process that the hospital will be using in place of that procedure.  You see, when I offered them my driver’s license and insurance card, they told me that their computers were not operating.  They did not state if it was expected to be a long drawn out process or not.  I stated that I had a 5:30 procedure scheduled so it was urgent that I be registered and they offered to make a photo copy of my indentification.  Fifteen seconds later the woman behind the desk came back and said that their copying machine was not functioning either.

Did I mention that I did not want to be in this hospital in the first place?  And so, without any identification, which I had to store in a locker while I was in for the lithotripsy, I was escorted into a room, where I would be anesthetized, with no identification, no hospital bracelet, nothing.  And so, the procedure went on, because I could not risk returning to the state of pain that the pea-sized stone had been causing me.  And to add insult to injury, they actually allowed me to sign myself out of the hospital later that morning, totally unattended.

I realize that the last example was an extreme case.  But it did happen.  And I went against my gut feeling in being treated at this hospital.  I got lucky compared to how this episode could have turned out.

My heart surgery, that was a totally different story.  I happened to be at that hospital in a connected doctor’s office.  I was already there, but I was already aware that the hospital had a good reputation.  But even that reputation is limited when it comes to long term cancer treatment effects.

When I found out, that I was not done with my cancer history, I had the major decision to make.  And it did not even come down to the biggest hospital or the hospital that made me feel all snuggly and warm.  I needed a network that had history, studied long term side effects.  My prior posts have gone into great detail on just how urgent my decisions can be.

As you can see, it all depends on the situation, do you go with the big network or the little hospital.  Does size really matter?  To some it does, to others, it’s what you do with what you know.

Reality TV Bites! My Pitch To The Major Networks


Shows based on reality.  Oh, the humanity!
“You’re gonna lose your mind watchin’ TV” Oh, and “Fear Factor” I watched maybe a half hour after that, felt like I needed a long shower
Network execs with naked ambitions, “Next week on FOX, watch lions eat Christians”.  Leech-covered grub-eatin’ fools on “Survivor”
I love shows with or without a plot I’ll stare ’til my legs are numb, my eyes bloodshot
Because I only have got One brain to rot
I’m gonna spend my life watching television a lot

These lyrics are from Wierd Al Yankovic’s song parody “Couch Potato”.  I have intentionally only copied the references to reality television.  You can read the complete lyrics on any web page.  Late last year I attended a cancer survivor event.  One of the speakers was a head honcho at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center.  When he finally began speaking he mentioned the uncomfortable feeling he got referring to former cancer patients as “survivors”.  Survivor is often a term we associate with war, accidents, natural disasters.  I am paraphrasing, but that is the gist of what he said.  I believe he was attributing it to the duration of the event and the effects following it.  I would go one step further as far as using the word survivor, not just for cancer patients, but those who have survived war, disasters, and other tragic events.  I believe the word “survivor” has been cheapened by “reality TV”.

I will admit that I do watch an occasional reality show, but it is very rare.  The whole concept of someone volunteering to be put in precarious positions, be paid for it, and referring to the victor as a survivor is insulting and demeaning to those who have had no choice, who are not given a financial opportunity to recover (or in the TV world, profit from their effort or gain their fifteen minutes of fame).

Seriously, take a look around your waiting room.  In walks your doctor with a TV producer, and about a dozen people whom you do not recognize.  Since you do not know any of the visitors it is up to the doctor to introduce to you, what is about to happen.

“I have been approached by this major network about a new reality show about getting through a battle with cancer.  These people have all volunteered to be given the same cancer, and the same treatments.  There will be challenges where they will be given the opportunity for extra treatments, or denied treatments.  Competitions will determine what order people would receive their treatments.  Losing challenges would also carry consequences.  Every week, one contestant will be sent home by vote from the real patients who are not here for the TV show, where they will then have to find their own treatment plan.  The last one standing, or surviving, will be the winner of a million dollars.  As participants as observers, we will make sure that you get a year’s supply of TV guides to make sure you know just when the show is airing.  Sound good?”

Of course this scenario is prerposterous, and offensive.  But many times, when I watch shows like Survivor, Big Brother, Fear Factor, and now all these sub-class shows like Redneck Vacations and a show mocking an overweight child because her parents are too stupid to realize the damage they are causing, I do not want to be held in the same descriptive sense of the word survivor.  I have been through too much for my journey to be so understated just because it did not appear on some remote island.  My psychological battles are far worse than a group of spoiled egotistical jerks who believe the only way to get by is by being deceiptful, and disloyal.

We cancer patients are kind of funny with the labels that healthy people, and sometimes other cancer patients like to place on us.  Survivor.  Warrior.  And I am not going to rip on people who watch the reality shows.  But just once, I would like to see a major network produce a series and stick with it, about true survivors, not volunteers, we were forced into our situations.  We were not made into millionaires because of it, but there are literally millions of us, over twelve million.  Many of us have additional issues, and most do not know why.  Stand Up 2 Cancer is doing great by drawing attention to supporting research to find new cures and support, but we need something to show that people do live long lives in spite of their greatest challenge in life.  A walk around a track at your local Relay For Life is lined with luminairies with the names of people who have faced cancer and beaten it.  I would like to see a Nationally televised Relay For Life with at least half of the program dedicated to survivors and perhaps expanding the Stand Up 2 Cancer to include the various issues that survivors face after treatments from psychological to medical.  Just once, I would like to see a real reality show that is not based on backstabbing, lying, and degrading.  I would like to see true success and show people how success is really celebrated and appreciated.

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