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So Many Will Never Know


There is no rhyme or reason what I choose to write about, or how often.  My intentions when I sit down at my laptop are simple.  Go through the hundred or so emails I get every day, and do some other things around my apartment.  But like an attention span the size of a flea, I get distracted quite easily, and then I click on to “Paul’s Heart” and write.  Well, it happened again.

A link to an article about a famous NY Times journalist, David Carr, broadcasted that Mr. Carr had died from complications of lung cancer.  Okay, nothing really all that unusual as people die from lung cancer all the time.  But as I looked more into the article, because a friend had noticed something unusual about Mr. Carr’s past, I began to wonder.

Between the original article, and others that I read, Mr. Carr, had been diagnosed with pneumonia previously and had died some time after that.  The article also mentioned that cardiac disease had contributed to his death.  And for some reason, the article needed to mention a bout with drugs and rehab.  Again, to the average person, nothing really stands out about Mr. Carr’s death.

But at the end of the article, in a “by the way” mention, Mr. Carr also battled Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.  And to the average journalist, this is no big deal, and may not have been worth the ink and paper it was printed on.

There have been plenty of famous people who have had Hodgkin’s Lymphoma and lived, and died.  But because Hodgkin’s is a rare form of cancer, it rarely gets any attention.  And one of the only things that really gets less attention than that, are the late effects that Hodgkin’s patients develop, who were treated for Lymphoma well over a decade ago.  The sad thing, is most long term survivors have no idea, that many of the ills that they face today, probably have direct ties to the treatments that saved their lives years ago.  And the medical books do not necessarily help our cause either as protocols were never in place years ago to follow up on us to see things as they developed.  After all, statistic really only matter when it goes up to five years.  Studies did not follow any further than that because I guess we were not supposed to live longer and develop severe issues.  You can read up on mine, found under the “pages” section of this blog and compare the only things I had been warned about 26 years ago, risk of a secondary cancer and pericarditis.  In my case, not even close.

But back to Mr. Carr.  I am going to just throw this out and see if it grows wing.  David Carr was a Hodgkin’s Lymphoma survivor.  And I believe that there is a likelihood that his death may have been related not just to the lung cancer, cardiac disease, and the pneumonia, but also from late effects from his treatments.  And I know many people, okay, mainly long term survivors like me, who would feel the same way.

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Now before everyone goes into a tailspin, treatments today are much more safer and pinpoint more accurately than when I was treated, and perhaps when Mr. Carr was treated (I have pinpointed his treatments somewhere before the turn of the century).

First, as many long term Hodgkin’s survivors will point out, just from the physical appearance, is a term we refer to as “Hodgkin’s neck”.  This comes from muscle loss as a result of the extreme radiation exposure during treatments which I am guessing he was treated with.  The article does not mention radiation or chemo treatments, but this is fairly obvious.  I would also probably guess, given that amount of loss he probably also had thyroid issues, common among Hodgkin’s survivors.  There is pain and control issues that come with this physical deterioration over time.  For many, the head begins to fall forward, again something we commoners refer to as “drooping head syndrome”.  I talked about this in an earlier post last year.

I have similar muscular loss, which I have written about, though not nearly as severe as Mr. Carr’s condition.  I also have a major amount of muscle loss in my upper torso.

But I think Mr. Carr’s long term issues went much further than that.  And even if it were assumed that he only underwent radiation treatments, which I would guess he may have gone through chemo,  the scope of damage from late effects can also contribute to pulmonary issues and cardiac issues, of which I and many others face.  Chemo late effects can also complicate things even more so.

There is a chance that Mr. Carr was never followed up for developing late effects.  Things may have just been chalked up to circumstances.  He did drugs.  He had cardiac disease.  He had pneumonia.  He had lung cancer.  So let me start the argument.

With the exception of drug use, the other three issues can have direct ties to late effects from treatments of Hodgkin’s Disease.  Radiation has a growing and lasting effect and chemo can also impact the cardiac system.  Like so many including myself, that would be a “yes”.  Depending on the diagnostics used on Mr. Carr, if he had his spleen removed, he had an increased susceptibility to illness, and even if he did not have the spleen removed, the cancer of the lymph system has an impact on the immune system.  Again, so many of my fellow survivors have multiple bouts of pneumonia from this situation, several develop pneumonia a few times a year.  I had two bouts in 2012.  And then of course, there is the risk of the secondary cancer.

But was David Carr being followed up post Hodgkin’s?  There is no mention anywhere.  And it is sad, that this is not even mentioned anywhere.  Because if it were not for a few of us “pioneers” and I do not even mean me, but the many before me who were the first to have their side effects tied to treatments, cancer patients today would not be followed up as closely as they are after treatments are done.

I do not mean to disparage David Carr, but for those of us who have had Hodgkin’s Lymphoma back in the 1950’s through the 1990’s, if his death was in any way related to late developing side effects from his treatments, I wish there was some way that this could be known and made public.  There are so many of us survivors out there who are aware of the issue of late developing side effects, and literally millions more who are not.  And when they go to their primary doctor, or even specialist, depending on how recent their education was earned, the tie to their Hodgkin’s past may never be made.

I’m just sayin’.

http://www.nbcnewyork.com/news/local/Times-Columnist-Died-From-Lung-Cancer-Autopsy-291975671.html

A Shared Article On Transitioning To Life After Cancer


Someone shared this article with me.  Although no cancer survivor is identical, the writer discusses a situation that many of us can relate to.

The Importance Of Heritage


In a rare moment for me of just kicking back and relaxing, I put the television on.  As I flipped through the channels I came across National Geographic’s Wild channel.  Programming most of this afternoon is geared towards China and the world that most people are unaware of beyond the smog and politics.

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Admittedly, I was not born with this interest in the largest country of the world.  But almost twelve years ago, I had to make up for my lack of interest in learning about China during high school in very short time.  Of course, both of my daughters are adopted from China.  I will leave the back story to other posts that I have written or will write.

I have always made it a point from the moment the decision was made to adopt from China, that my daughters’ heritage would be adopted as well.  I never had any intention of hiding the fact that from appearance, clearly you could see that we were not biologically related.  Although there has been the never-ending joke that my daughters have my eyes at least, making reference to the fact that I do not have what the Asians call the round “round eye” of Caucasians, rather my eyes are more “almond” shaped as is the characteristic of Asians.  Ironically, my elementary school classmates were the first to point out this characteristic to me.

One of the things that impressed me most about the Asian population, is their commitment to traditions, something we as Americans rarely commit to any.  Customs, traditions, expectations, are all just that, expected.  I believe this helps the Chinese people to be such a “peaceful” and more content population.

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I have made a promise to both of my daughters, that I will teach them as much as I can about their heritage, their customs, and so much more.  I want them to learn about their language.  I want them to learn about the holidays.  I want them to know where they came from.

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The major benefit to me of having adopted children from China, as opposed to many other international programs, is because China required the adoptive parents to travel to adopt the children.  Many other programs bring the children to the United States.  By traveling to China, I got to see first hand, the land, hear the  language, and truly appreciate where both of my daughters have come from.  It will make it a lot easier to teach both of my daughters.

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Yes, that is a picture of Madison standing in front of a statue of childhood superhero, Ultraman.

Both of my daughters have come from different areas of the same province.  One came from a more populated area, the other, considered more farming.  It was during this visit, that we got to see the other life that either of our daughters could have ended up with, were it not being for China allowing us to adopt them.

During our second adoption, our guides had informed us that we would be travelling to a village, very similar to where our daughters were from, though not that particular village.  We would stop by a market to buy “gifts” for the children of the village, pretty much toys and candy.  As our bus pulled into the village the bus was mobbed by everyone excited for what they probably knew we were carrying just for them.

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This was actually quite overwhelming, because as the following pictures will show, the families here have barely anything.  At moments, we felt as if we were in an ocean, and someone had thrown chum into the ocean bringing on an onslaught of sharks in a feeding frenzy.  All of a sudden larger children were overpowering smaller children for what they had received from us.  New toys ended up broken, candy fell to the ground.  It was actually quite heartbreaking.

Once we were done with this “greeting”, it was off to tour the village.

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There were no cars.  Floors were all concrete.  No electric, and no indoor plumbing.  The families here survived by farming, and other than their traditions and customs, this was all they had.  And they seemed content.  It was very humbling for us Westerners to have seen this side of China, and to enable us to explain the appreciation that our children will be taught as we try to explain where they came from and why.

And there have been plenty of blessings from our adoptions as well.  I met nineteen other families who also would become “adopted” by me, as family of our own.  Our children are the only connection they have to China, here in the United States.  And it has been important to everyone to make sure that all the girls and the families have kept in touch with each other.

On a larger scale, I have met dozens of other families who have also adopted from the same orphanages.  For many years we would gather to celebrate the common bond at a different location in the United States.  I have developed many friendships because of this.  But perhaps, one of the biggest surprises would come from one of the families of this particular group.

I have always intended to be able to provide both of my daughters with as much information about their past as I could.  Their finding locations, any foster family they may have had, information about their villages and such.  For my oldest daughter, information was discovered that revealed that she had a crib mate with the foster family that cared for her until we came to China for the adoption.  It turns out that this “crib mate” actually lives in Scotland, the foster family has been confirmed as well as the time period.  Today, we exchange pictures in hopes that one day, the two girls will get to meet.

And that is where I am at right now.  I still have hopes of having my daughters to return to China.  I have promised them this.  And for my oldest, I will do what I can to make sure that she gets to meet the little girl that shared a crib with her for a short while.

In the adoption documentary “Somewhere Between,” the issue of adoption in the later years of a child’s life is dealt with.  Madison had a brief cameo in the movie where she mentioned to one of the lead actresses in the movie, “I am from China too.”  Madison is very proud of her heritage, as is Emmalie, through Madison is a bit more vocal about it.  Which is all the more reason and importance, that the children be taught about the land from where they came from.

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