Paul's Heart

Life As A Dad, And A Survivor

So Many Will Never Know


There is no rhyme or reason what I choose to write about, or how often.  My intentions when I sit down at my laptop are simple.  Go through the hundred or so emails I get every day, and do some other things around my apartment.  But like an attention span the size of a flea, I get distracted quite easily, and then I click on to “Paul’s Heart” and write.  Well, it happened again.

A link to an article about a famous NY Times journalist, David Carr, broadcasted that Mr. Carr had died from complications of lung cancer.  Okay, nothing really all that unusual as people die from lung cancer all the time.  But as I looked more into the article, because a friend had noticed something unusual about Mr. Carr’s past, I began to wonder.

Between the original article, and others that I read, Mr. Carr, had been diagnosed with pneumonia previously and had died some time after that.  The article also mentioned that cardiac disease had contributed to his death.  And for some reason, the article needed to mention a bout with drugs and rehab.  Again, to the average person, nothing really stands out about Mr. Carr’s death.

But at the end of the article, in a “by the way” mention, Mr. Carr also battled Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.  And to the average journalist, this is no big deal, and may not have been worth the ink and paper it was printed on.

There have been plenty of famous people who have had Hodgkin’s Lymphoma and lived, and died.  But because Hodgkin’s is a rare form of cancer, it rarely gets any attention.  And one of the only things that really gets less attention than that, are the late effects that Hodgkin’s patients develop, who were treated for Lymphoma well over a decade ago.  The sad thing, is most long term survivors have no idea, that many of the ills that they face today, probably have direct ties to the treatments that saved their lives years ago.  And the medical books do not necessarily help our cause either as protocols were never in place years ago to follow up on us to see things as they developed.  After all, statistic really only matter when it goes up to five years.  Studies did not follow any further than that because I guess we were not supposed to live longer and develop severe issues.  You can read up on mine, found under the “pages” section of this blog and compare the only things I had been warned about 26 years ago, risk of a secondary cancer and pericarditis.  In my case, not even close.

But back to Mr. Carr.  I am going to just throw this out and see if it grows wing.  David Carr was a Hodgkin’s Lymphoma survivor.  And I believe that there is a likelihood that his death may have been related not just to the lung cancer, cardiac disease, and the pneumonia, but also from late effects from his treatments.  And I know many people, okay, mainly long term survivors like me, who would feel the same way.

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Now before everyone goes into a tailspin, treatments today are much more safer and pinpoint more accurately than when I was treated, and perhaps when Mr. Carr was treated (I have pinpointed his treatments somewhere before the turn of the century).

First, as many long term Hodgkin’s survivors will point out, just from the physical appearance, is a term we refer to as “Hodgkin’s neck”.  This comes from muscle loss as a result of the extreme radiation exposure during treatments which I am guessing he was treated with.  The article does not mention radiation or chemo treatments, but this is fairly obvious.  I would also probably guess, given that amount of loss he probably also had thyroid issues, common among Hodgkin’s survivors.  There is pain and control issues that come with this physical deterioration over time.  For many, the head begins to fall forward, again something we commoners refer to as “drooping head syndrome”.  I talked about this in an earlier post last year.

I have similar muscular loss, which I have written about, though not nearly as severe as Mr. Carr’s condition.  I also have a major amount of muscle loss in my upper torso.

But I think Mr. Carr’s long term issues went much further than that.  And even if it were assumed that he only underwent radiation treatments, which I would guess he may have gone through chemo,  the scope of damage from late effects can also contribute to pulmonary issues and cardiac issues, of which I and many others face.  Chemo late effects can also complicate things even more so.

There is a chance that Mr. Carr was never followed up for developing late effects.  Things may have just been chalked up to circumstances.  He did drugs.  He had cardiac disease.  He had pneumonia.  He had lung cancer.  So let me start the argument.

With the exception of drug use, the other three issues can have direct ties to late effects from treatments of Hodgkin’s Disease.  Radiation has a growing and lasting effect and chemo can also impact the cardiac system.  Like so many including myself, that would be a “yes”.  Depending on the diagnostics used on Mr. Carr, if he had his spleen removed, he had an increased susceptibility to illness, and even if he did not have the spleen removed, the cancer of the lymph system has an impact on the immune system.  Again, so many of my fellow survivors have multiple bouts of pneumonia from this situation, several develop pneumonia a few times a year.  I had two bouts in 2012.  And then of course, there is the risk of the secondary cancer.

But was David Carr being followed up post Hodgkin’s?  There is no mention anywhere.  And it is sad, that this is not even mentioned anywhere.  Because if it were not for a few of us “pioneers” and I do not even mean me, but the many before me who were the first to have their side effects tied to treatments, cancer patients today would not be followed up as closely as they are after treatments are done.

I do not mean to disparage David Carr, but for those of us who have had Hodgkin’s Lymphoma back in the 1950’s through the 1990’s, if his death was in any way related to late developing side effects from his treatments, I wish there was some way that this could be known and made public.  There are so many of us survivors out there who are aware of the issue of late developing side effects, and literally millions more who are not.  And when they go to their primary doctor, or even specialist, depending on how recent their education was earned, the tie to their Hodgkin’s past may never be made.

I’m just sayin’.

http://www.nbcnewyork.com/news/local/Times-Columnist-Died-From-Lung-Cancer-Autopsy-291975671.html

A Shared Article On Transitioning To Life After Cancer


Someone shared this article with me.  Although no cancer survivor is identical, the writer discusses a situation that many of us can relate to.

Your Health And Corporate America


I ask for your apologies in advance of reading this post, but right now, I am so pissed off right now!  I do not recall having the anger and disgust in me, even as I faced a similar situation myself.  But after reading a Facebook post last night, the acid churned in my stomach resulting in a tumultuous and sleepless night.

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CORPORATE AMERICA… I HATE YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU STAND FOR!!!!

Okay… so here is what is causing this outburst.  If you have followed me on “Paul’s Heart” you know  I am 100% in the corner of patients and getting the medical care and support that is needed, NO MATTER WHAT!!!  I had been planning on writing a post about just how much corporate America cares, rather, does not care about the health of anyone.  So, where as most of my posts, which involve personal emotion, normally sit 24-48 hours just to make sure that I get my point across the responsible way I intend to do so.  However, so that you can actually feel my rage right now, this is an unedited, no holds barred post intended to get the attention of anyone in corporate America or our government to give a shit about the mistreatment of patients, especially those facing deadly diseases.

A writer posted on one of the Facebook pages that I follow for Lymphoma, that he was being turned down by his employer, for short term disability coverage.  The gentleman has Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, CANCER!!!  Now in case the morons that oversee the Human Resources department do not realize it, CANCER is a deadly disease!!!  And as a patient deals with cancer, both physically and emotionally, it may leave an employee unable to work.  I am not defending someone who simply wants to stay out of work for months for a simple headache, or a sore big toe.  This individual has CANCER!!!

Now you may be thinking, “wait a minute, if he has cancer, it is almost a guarantee that he will miss work because of his cancer.  That would be common sense.”  Except, that is not the case.  The individual was turned down for short term disability, to allow him to remain out of work while dealing with his cancer for the following reason… this patient decided that he was going to treat his cancer holistically, instead of by conventional means.  And his employer did not approve of this choice.  They want him to go through traditional treatments.

Corporate America decided that it did not approve of his decision of his treatment for CANCER, and therefore was going to deny his request for short term disability.  ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!  The employee will still have his cancer, which may or may not respond to his choice of treatment.  If it works, he will still experience all the physical and emotional side effects of a patient who undergoes traditional treatments.  And if his treatment does not work… well…he will need more than short term considerations.

But just who in the Hell is Corporate America to tell a patient what medical decision needs to be made?  It is bad enough that pen-pushers in insurance companies make patients jump through all kinds of hoops when time is most important, ignoring the pleas from doctors to speed up the treatment process to allow the best chance for success.

The decision has been made.  Corporate America has stuck a knife through “the heart” of a cancer patient, denying him the opportunity for rest, and recovery that is often needed during this process.

So what will happen?  What can be done for this patient?  Of course, the majority of responses are all pretty much the same, “get a lawyer and fight”.  Which of course is all well and good, if you are a normal and healthy person and have the stamina, and the time to take on such a fight.  But cancer patients, as well as others facing serious illnesses do not have this luxury.  And Corporate America knows this.  So with their heavy hand, you either work, or quit/get fired.  But Corporate America did not get where it has by being soft and humane.  They are willing to go to court and fight the patient, but their money is hoping that the patient does not.  So, even if only one patient out of perhaps five fights this situation, that means four did not, and they would be willing to accept that loss.  That is, if this patient chooses to fight.

Corporate America has no right to tell a patient, as a condition of employment what is appropriate as far as treatment!!!

As I mentioned earlier, I have seen this type of behavior before, though through the Worker’s Comp process.  I was injured on the job back in 2003, in such a way that could have only happened at work.  But because there was lost time from work involved, a supervisor got fancy with a pen to cover their behind, and I was denied.  I was adamant that this was not to go against my personal insurance, and got a lawyer to help me prove my case was indeed work related.  It took nine months, which I got back all of my pay in full.  But it took an independent medical evaluation ordered by my employer, who expected the doctor to side with them, but stated clearly, the injury to my wrist had no chance of ever being done at home.  I did not use a jackhammer at home.  I did not play hockey recreationally.  I did nothing at home that could have created the heavily torqued tear in my wrist.  But then again, this was a situation where Corporate America had been willing to roll the dice… deny three for Worker’s Comp, if one appeals and wins, at least they did not concede to the other two who chose not to fight for their right.

CORPORATE AMERICA DOES NOT CARE ABOUT THE HEALTH OF ANYONE!!!!

It is unfortunate that it has to be this way, but I do hope the patient referred to above, does fight for his absence to be covered under short term disability.  A Hodgkin’s survivor myself, I recall all too well what fighting the disease took out of me.  SHAME ON CORPORATE AMERICA!!!

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