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Outsmarting The Devil


I am finally completing my challenge, ten albums that have had an impact on my life.  This last one is really symbolic of me.  It is the Trans-Siberian Orchestra’s rock opera, “Beethoven’s Last Night.”  Commercially it did not get a lot of attention, but rather, those who followed the band, not only bought the album, but made sure that they got to see the live performance.  I may have heard one radio station play one song from the album, “Requiem,” which was a hard rock arrangement of Beethoven’s 5th symphony.

As I mentioned, “Beethoven’s Last Night” is a rock opera.  The story takes place as Beethoven has completed his 10th symphony, which of course in reality that never happened.  Upon completion, the devil appears, ready to claim Beethoven’s soul.  Of course Beethoven is not ready to die, and makes a deal with the devil, in exchange for his 10th symphony, he will spare his life.  Trickery is involved, spoiler alert, Beethoven lives.

Like I said, this album is symbolic for me.  Sure, I enjoy most all genres of music, and TSO tastefully arranges and mixes classical music with a hard rock element.  but this album is about not being ready to die and what someone must go through to not have that happen.

I have mentioned it here on “Paul’s Heart”, and it often comes up in my circle, that I often feel as though I perhaps may have been a cat in a prior life, in that, having “nine lives.”  I joke that I only hope it was a strong cat like a tiger or lion.  The medical issues that I have experienced in my life, I refer to as my dances with the devil.  I say this, because the results of each, could have led to my death.  By my count, I am currently up to six.  Cancer, two heart surgeries, two bouts of septic pneumonia, and one major car collision.  My theory of feline ancestry would dictate that I then have three more left.

So as you can see, like Beethoven, I am not ready by any means to die.  There are many things that I am still looking forward to, especially with my two daughters, from graduations to possibly marriage and grandchildren.

Music has always been in my life, and has had a purpose whether it was for healing, relaxing, recovering, fighting, or just enjoying.  I am blessed that I can do this in many forms, playing (guitar and piano), sing, write, or just listen.  Of the many influences that I have on my children, music is one that I wanted to make sure that they had an appreciation for.  I have several memories of each daughter whether it was a school performance, singing along to the car radio, or me singing them a lullaby at night.

In my darkest of days, music has always been there for me, providing the needed comfort and support to get me through each time.  Music heals us spiritually as well as physically.  Music reminds us of our past and the many things we have gotten through, giving us strength at times we feel that we have none.  With music, we just keep going.

And that is why this album means so much to me.  But yes, the mix of classical music and hard rock, it is definitely one of my favorite albums also.

Here I Go Again


There is no specific reason per se, that Whitesnake’s self titled album from 1987 is one of my top ten influencial albums, other than… I PLAY IT AS LOUD AS I CAN ALL OF THE TIME!

Yes, it is like that.  After my stint as a radio disc jockey, and my time with Kamikaze Craig, I developed a harder edge to my taste in music that was lacking.  The screaming guitars and vocals of Deep Purple’s former front man David Coverdale just make this album 100% from beginning to end.

“Cryin’ In The Rain” and “Bad Boys” were a good jump of the adrenaline.  But while pop radio stations were playing the crap out of the main hit of the album, “Here I Go Again,” and it was good, don’t get me wrong, just way overplayed enough to make me tired of it, our album oriented rock station, WZZO had “Still Of The Night” in its rotation, and this was a guaranteed full volume on my radio, still is.

“Give Me All Your Lovin'”, “Children Of The Night,” “Straight From The Heart,” and “Don’t Turn Away” were all good songs.  But the one song from this album that I cannot get out of my head, especially visually, is “Is This Love?”  All thanks to a once-in-the-spotlight Tawny Kitaen, seductively “dancing” throughout the song.  She married Coverdale in 1989.

I have always been a fan of Coverdale, and the six degrees of different formations of bands from Deep Purple, to the Firm, and his short stint with Jimmy Page, for the Coverdale/Page album.

This album actually helped me to get louder and harder as I got older.  Not the other way around.

National Cancer Survivor Day – My 30th Year


Please take some time today, and reach out to someone you know, who has dealt with cancer, or is still dealing with cancer, and give them a hug, literally or figuratively.

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