You Are Too Young For This
If I had a dollar for every time I heard this phrase… “Oh my God, you are too young for this…”
- I was diagnosed with cancer at the age of 22 (Hodgkin’s Lymphoma). Barely adult of age, the stereotypical age of cancer was at least well into adulthood. But here is the fact. Cancer does not discriminate. Hodgkin’s Lymphoma is one of many cancers referred to as a “pediatric cancer.” That’s right, a cancer that is known to strike children, as well as adults. The truth is, there are many types of cancers that affect children not just as young as toddlers, but there are even reports of infants being born with tumors.
- Following the staging laparotomy for my Hodgkin’s (to determine how bad it was), my spleen was removed, liver was biopsied, as well as other lymph nodes, I was told I would not need physical therapy to recover because of my youthful age. I would bounce back with no problem. Here is what happens with that kind of surgery. Doctors make a huge incision in the abdomen to do all of this work. That means they go through all those abdomen muscles that on some are referred to as “six-pack abs.” This area is often referred to as your personal “chi”, your structural strength responsible for good posture and such. Not that I had any six-pack abs before, I definitely had not shot at them following the surgery, not because of the surgery, but there was no training to strengthen my abdomen muscles. With the pain I was dealing with during the long healing process, it was never going to happen, especially without any physical therapy. .
- In April of 2008, as I am laying on an operating table, naked, covered only by a thin blanket, having all kinds of tubes and wires being connected to me, I heard one nurse quietly (though obviously not quietly enough) say, “Oh my God, he is too young for this.” I had been diagnosed with a “widow maker” heart blockage which is clearly what they had been used to seeing in someone who was overweight, a heavy smoker, or even just older in age. But I was treated with high dose radiation (four times the lifetime maximum exposure limit) and toxic chemotherapy medicines that caused this extreme damage to my cardiac system at the age of 42.
- Once I had been cleared by the surgeon following that open heart surgery, I began cardiac rehabilitation. Man, if the nurses thought I was too young to be on that table, the looks I got from other patients, much older than me, reminded me of a southbound train ride with “snowbirds” travelling to Florida in my early 30’s. Clearly I did not belong there, or so they felt.
- In 2013, my career took a very much unexpected turn. A combination of circumstances between my health, and business restructuring, I would have to finally except the decision to pursue disability. I had already been reluctantly labelled as “handicapped” (parking placard included), but as my employer up until this moment, had been accommodating the many physical health restrictions allowing me to still be able to perform certain work functions, while dealing with my health (should be noted, this is required of the Americans With Disabilities Act – something I have written in the past about), a mutual understanding was reached between the company and I, that upon an updated review by my doctors, and considering a staff reduction, there was a likelihood that I would no longer have any work to perform, and therefore they would assist me with applying for disability. I thought accepting being referred to as handicapped was tough. Being told as a 3rd generation blue collar worker, that I was no longer able to do my job, which I had performed decades even through all my health struggles, was the most difficult thing to accept. One part of my life, no longer had any purpose. The one thing standing in my way of the approval process, my age. I was too young. Granted, there are many on disability that are much younger than me, but nonetheless, it is an argument that is made for some, and was made in my case. In a word process, it was determined that not only was I disabled, but only from the date that I turned 50 years of age. There was no denial when my disability began, but they would only consider it effective at age 50.
- Following a second surgery earlier this year, it was decided that I would need to undergo another round of cardiac rehab to help control my blood pressure. I take several medicines to help do this, and for the most part, I have reduced most of my stress with one or two triggers remaining. But, here I go again. The average rehab class age is around 70 years of age. And once again, I am getting the looks from those who wonder what I am doing there as I am too young by their judgement.
I have gotten used to hearing the “you are too young for this. In fact, at this point, if I did have a dollar for every time I had been told I am too young for this and that, I would be able to enjoy the local pizza special for lunch today.
Yes, I know, neither of these are good for me. But given what I have gone through, I do have some things I still enjoy, and honestly, this will not have an impact on what has been done to my body by science. Plus, I am ending this post on a pleasant note, and tasty too.