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The Plan After Covid19


After two years, I think I have finally figured out what life for me after the Covid19 pandemic will be like, but more importantly what it is really about. Like all of the other outbreaks that I have had to deal with over my cancer survivorship, it has been the unknown of Covid19 that made it more difficult to deal with and live during the times of Covid19.

Fully vaccinated, and having followed the mitigation recommendations for the last two years, I know for a fact, I have avoided a direct Covid19 exposure. And at no time, did I have to sacrifice freedom or liberty, nor did I ever live in fear, that ridiculous false trope. But it is after all of this time, I have come to realize that it is not even about the divide between those that deal with reality, and those that do not.

The biggest thing we, as human beings, with supposedly such developed minds, were told, we HAD to wash our hands and we HAD to cover our mouths and noses when we sneeze or cough. We HAD to stay home if we were sick so as not to make anyone else sick. Forget the topic of Covid19 for a second. We had to be told to do these common sense things that we were likely told as children. And why were we being told to do these things, not just because of the unknowns of the current crisis, but because too many of us have forgotten common sense. And because of that, then came the mandates, being forced to do the things mentioned above. But I do not want to get lost in the weeds with a different topic.

We spread germs, that is what we do. Like the photo above, I know my father and my grandfather always carried handkerchiefs, or as I called them, “snot rags,” for obvious reasons. They were gross pieces of cloth, kept in their pockets, when needed for use, and after being used, to be used again, and again. That’s right. They would blow their knows into the hanky, and then stuff it back into their pocket. What does the average person do with a tissue after blowing their nose? Right. They throw it into the trash. But not the snot rag. It just got shoved right back into the denim incubator of his pants.

Not just men are guilty of this, but so are women. In the purses of women, especially older women, are “old” tissues that after getting used, get shoved back inside the purse, perhaps to be used again and again.

As a child, there was a pretty good chance, you would be victimized due to your runny nose, of either reaching into their pocket or purse, and pulling out a “snot rag,” using it on you, and shoving it back into place for the next time.

As an adult, I had one particular experience when flying. I keep pretty much to myself as it is, no desire for small talk with strangers. But one flight, was an elderly woman sitting next to me, who clearly liked to talk. No sooner had she sat down, she turned to me and said, “soooooo… where are you headed? Is it for business or for…” She never finished her question because right at that moment, she let out a good hacking of her lungs, coughing directly at me, her mouth uncovered. Several days later, you guessed it, I came down with whatever that lady had, and eventually others in my family would get it from me. Fortunately over the last several years, I have minimized these experiences.

Here we are, two years dealing with Covid19. We now know how to diagnose it. We have vaccines to prevent and protect us if exposed so that the infection is not severe enough to put us into the hospital or worse, die from Covid19. We have legitimate treatment options for those diagnosed early enough. And then, we still have the mitigation recommendations, the common sense, wash your hands, and cover your mouths and noses.

There are really only a few things that I have not done since the pandemic and subsequent recommendations were made. Go to movies and concerts, and fly to see my mother. Over the pandemic, my daughters have been to visit with me, with the strictest of precautions, and they have remained safe as always, now fully vaccinated themselves.

An experience to my local grocery store however, quickly made me aware, that it may be quite a while, if ever, before I go back to attending concerts, movies, or anything densely populated. I witnessed two events, the second nearly making me vomit. The first was a boy walking with his parents, asking when he would be allowed back to school. The mother had explained to him that he had “three more days” and reminded him of a classmate who had a similar experience. In other words, this child was supposed to be quarantined for ten days, yet was out with his family, and unmasked, potentially spreading Covid19 to anyone within close proximity inside the store. Now for the worse story. If you are eating or drinking, stop.

In front of the pharmacy counter, a woman was standing. She arched her back and quickly reared forward, expelling a loud sneeze. No mask. Her hands were by her side. Clearly, whatever came out of her nose, was now blasted all over the shelves, counter top, and floor in front of her.

Do you see my point? Common sense. We know how to get through Covid19. But while we keep trying to convince each side who is right and who is wrong, taking political or conspiratorial sides, we have actually crossed 800,000 American lives lost, that clearly did not have to die, especially once the vaccines became available.

The Eagles are one of my favorite classic bands to see. And when I saw the advertisements come up for this particular tour, playing the entire Hotel California album, I really thought this would be the moment, I would finally get over my hurdle of avoiding concerts.

Up until this point, I have been content watching video streams of concerts and movies, and really, there was no reason to change this behavior. My food was better, cost less, no traffic, and I was in bed at the most, half hour later. It is not about being squashed shoulder to shoulder in seats to enjoy a concert or movie experience. I would use external speakers to give more volume, and I had the best seat in the house every time.

And then I remembered, the snot rag, the tissue in the purse, the contaminated kid not following quarantine rules, and of course, clean-up in aisle 5 in front of the pharmacy.

I have never been a fan of big crowds even without a pandemic, but am less thrilled with them now. But it is not because of Covid19, or whatever else comes down the road. Rather, the common sense that so many seem to lack. But hey, I don’t want to impose on anyone’s freedom to blow their germs wherever they want. So I take it upon myself. And I do still get to enjoy all the things that I want. Better yet, I stay healthy.

And for those that love that false trope, that is not living in fear, that is living smart.

The Roles Of Vaccines


Vaccines.  We all got them as babies. and then, we had to get more in school.  I remember waiting in my first grade assembly line, we were getting our measles booster.  It was this loud air-powered gun that hit your flesh without any kind of warning.  It hurt like hell and left a round imprint on the outside of your biscep.  But other than tetatnus shots, these on average would be the last vaccine’s many would see.

The concept was simple.  Get the shot of the disease you are trying to prevent (either in live form virus or dead)  which would then trigger your body into an immune response, making antibodies to help fight off a future infection.  This is how getting the measles shot, chicken pox vaccine’s prevent getting the actual disease, but if by chance you get the disease first, if your body’s immune system is working properly, and with some luck, you will survive and build up immunity on your own.  This is why most people only get Chicken Pox once, or do they?

There are vaccines available for so many things today from polio, HPV, and a new strain of flu every year.  There are also vaccine’s against pneumonia and meningitis.  But these vaccines also have the possibitlity of giving someone a false sense of security.  We have all heard that “this year’s shot does not prevent all flu’s from occurring.”  Measles and polio we are pretty sure it is one shot and done.  We get the MMRV for measles, mumps, rhubella, and varicella (covers chicken pox) so that we do not get the chicken pox.  Researchers now believe that another booster is needed.

Back in the days of  my diagnostics, I had a procedure done called a laparotomy.  This was the diagnostic test being done, which was to determine what stage of Hodgkin’s Disease I was in.  The procedure involves going in through my abdomen, and removing my spleen, some lymph nodes, and a biopsy of my liver.  Involvement of any would determine my staging, and treatment.  When I questioned the removal of the spleen, and how we can live without it, as so many do, I had been told while it does have a purpose, we can live without it.  And we can live without it, I am proof.  Spleen removal was also popular for people who were in car accidents or had other severe trauma with interior bleeding.

When you realize the amount of things that a spleen does:   main function of the immune system filtering out old red cells while holding extra blood, hemoglobin is metabolized so that its byproducts can be handled by the liver, antibodies are removed of their bacteria just as if it were a large lymph node.  Today researchers know that the spleen plays a vital role in recovering from a heart attack by helping to regenerate cells.  The spleen does all of these things, yet we can live without it if we have to.

The bad news is that there are precautions that have to be taken if you become “asplenic” – aka, without a spleen.  Risks of infection and contracting illnesses are much higher.  A simple cut on the finger, some dental work involving scraping away bacteria (that is why we floss people), a co-worker who decides to tough it out rather than use a paid sick day, all increase our risks of not only becoming septic, which for the majority of patients is fatal, let alone those without a spleen.

So what do we do if we do not have this “non-vital organ” that clearly protects us from infections and diseases.  In my case, prior to my splenectomy (part of the laparotomy), I had been injected with the Pneumovax vaccine.  At the time I was told it would be for life.  Since then, the value has been bumped up to needing every ten years or so.  But in my particular case, the Pneumovax has not worked.  Part of my long term cancer surveillance has included monitoring my titers for pneumonia and meningitis.  Titers are simply proof that your body reacted to having been exposed to that particular illness.  My titers showed nothing for either pneumonia or meningitis.  Over a period of 3 years I had received over 10 Pneumovax shots and at least 6 menningicoccal shots.  As far as I can tell, I have been okay as far as the titers for menningitis.  But I am majorly struggling against the pneumoccal titers.

You need to understand,  The Pneumovax only protects against one type of pneumnia I believe.  The problem is, there are many many more types.  So after a bout last year with pneumonia and sepsis, and another bout with double pneumonia, and all of the shots I have taken, my body has still only generated enough titers to show 50% protection.  Simple terms, I am nowhere near the protection I need and am now faced with yet more vaccines.  Now they will try something called Prevnar, which is a pneumococcal vaccine that covers several types of pneumonia to see what that does for me.

It sucks really.  I have gone through all of those vaccines, and twice last year, I came down with severe cases of pneumonia.  Worse yet, I had no obvious symptoms (breathing, coughing, congestion, NOTHING), except by some dumb fluke, my wife took my temperature which resulted in a trip to the emergency room both times, one by ambulance.

At this point, I am scared to have any more junk injected into me afraid of what all that exposure will do.  I have to be TB tested every year, which is basicly done with the skin test, you are injected with TB.  For Flu, you are injected with the flu, either live virus or dead virus.  I can never receive a live virus vaccine, especially like the one from a couple of years ago for the swine flu.  I have been fortunate, having actually had chicken pox, I have not had shingles.  Shingles for a long term cancer survivor, especially one without a spleen is pure torture.  And I know several people who get them many times a year.  The vaccines are not an option because they are live virus vaccines.

So what is my best defense?  You.  Both of us, wash our hands.  Cover our mouth and nose when we cough and sneeze, then sanitize our hands again.  Stay home from work if you are sick.  And while I respect a parent’s right not to have their child vaccinated, you do not have the right to expose my child or have my child become a carrier and infect me.

On my Med Alert bracelet is a lot of information about me.  But there is one important word on there that gets everyone’s attention when treating me… “asplenic”.  This lets every EMT, every nurse, tech, doctor, know that extra precautions must be taken with me if I am being treated.  Now you know.

no to shingles/live vaccines

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