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When A Door Opens…


I was diagnosed and treated for Hodgkin’s Lymphoma from 1988 through 1990.  Being a rare form of cancer, Hodgkin’s Disease, as it was called back then, was relatively unknown, or discussed.  This was especially true when compared to lung, breast, or colon cancers.

Other than “The Terry Fox Story”, or the more recognizable “Brian’s Song”, I had never really seen any movies or television shows dealing with cancer.  Which is what caught my attention one late evening during a “midnight” movie on a syndicated station.

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“Walking Through The Fire” had originally aired on network television, but was now syndicated.  The movie starred Bess Armstrong as a woman who was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Disease.  But she was also pregnant, and treating the cancer put the pregnancy at risk, and without treatment, she would die.  It was a star studded cast for that time period (Richard Masur, Swoosie Kurtz, Bonnie Bedelia, June Lockhart), so I was looking forward to how the Hodgkin’s experience would be portrayed, compared to my real life experience.

Besides it being a midnight movie on television and I was tired, I could not get passed a scene in the movie that involved a diagnostic procedure that any Hodgkin’s survivor from the 1980’s and earlier was most likely subjected to, the staging laparotomy.  Without going into the gory details, this was a surgical procedure, that involved a cut from the abdomen to the chest.  This procedure involved removal of the spleen and other biopsies, definitely not something you would just bounce back from.  But Hollywood and its magic could do what medicine could not, manage pain and recovery instantly.

Over the next many decades, there would be several television shows dealing with Hodgkin’s either in their story line, or behind the camera.  As usual, Hodgkin’s did not get any kind of spotlight, which nearly all of us having dealt with Hodgkin’s, constantly hold our breaths for that one moment that will finally get the attention we need.

One of my favorite medical television shows was “House” with Hugh Laurie.  He played a head doctor, who got assigned all kinds of difficult cases, which involved partly medicine, but also crime scene instincts.  Of course my hope was that one case that would come in, would deal with late effects from cancer treatments such as radiation or chemotherapies.  The issues that many of us face, often go undiagnosed because symptoms do not sync with our age, our appearance, and often times our health history.

Some long term cancer survivors are only recently getting the care they need because of a few pioneers who realized that we were living beyond the five year mark, and also realized that we just might be developing long term issues that were never expected because we were not supposed to live that long.  But the fact is, WE DO!!!

I should not have been shocked then, when once again, television would use another series, mention the word lymphoma, and then walk away from the episode feeling disappointed.  Even more so, because this time, the patient not only had lymphoma, but was being treated for his late developing side effects.

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I have never seen the television show “Heartbeat” before, not even previews.  But when the feed came across Facebook, that a television show was actually going to tackle long term cancer effects, I could not help but be cautiously curious.

The premise of the show is similar to one of my favorites, “House.”  Both are unique doctors with personality quirks and personal issues they must deal with.  So again, I am thinking, this is going to be a doctor that is going to show the efforts that it takes to properly diagnose someone who does not know they are dealing with late effects from cancer treatments.

During the first ten minutes of the show, I came to the conclusion I was going to be disappointed.  The dialogue of other storylines in this episode were stupid and no different than other “TV hospital story lines.”  Then we finally get to meet the patient.

Sal Merrick has lymphoma as a teenager.  He was treated with radiation therapy.  The show does not mention if there was also chemotherapy, but radiation alone can cause enough damage with late effects, so we will just go with the assumption that radiation is all that he had.  After all, he has had this doctor caring for him for a long time, so those details were not relevant to viewers, only those of us who have been there and done that.

The doctor and her gaggle of students are making their rounds to Mr. Merrick, and following the introduction, the doctor mentions “late cardiovascular complications from radiotherapy.”  One student as if hit by an adrenaline rush starts blurting out “congestive heart failure… pericardial disease…” and then he is interrupted by the doctor who then allows the patient to explain what is being dealt with.

On one hand, I am glad to see that late effects are now being covered in med school.  The doctor gives Merrick the opportunity to explain to everyone what he is dealing with.  This is unfortunately an all to familiar experience as many of us survivors, end up educating our caregivers.  The difference being, those of us who are lucky or fortunate to have doctors with open minds and willing to be our advocate.

Merrick explains that he has “mitral valve regurgitation”, a common issue, with radiation therapy wreaking havoc on the heart and cardiovascular system.  There are many other issues possible for us, the other valves, scarring, etc., but Merrick fortunately was only dealing with a mitral valve problem.  And like most of us, we know the risks of the procedures we face, and the ramifications if those risks are not addressed.

Merrick had multiple surgeries, which of course resulted in a lot of scar tissue, with scarring being enough of a concern by itself.  But, due to the radiation damage, organ tissue is extremely fragile, and bleeding out is a major concern.  Typically, heart surgery on one of us, is done through the breast bone, open heart surgery.  That also has its share of risks from bleeding out and infections.  But of course, the show does not address that.  To Merrick’s credit, he had excellent knowledge of what he has been dealing with, and kept excellent records, as many of us do.

Open heart surgery is one of the scariest experiences someone can have in their life.  There is the humongous and permanent scar on the chest, not to mention the long recovery, and the lifetime of fear of “what’s next?”

Technology has advanced in open heart surgery, now many surgeries being done by robot, the DaVinci Robot to be exact, allows heart valve surgery to now be done without going through the breast bone, but through the side of the rib cage.  This provides a much quicker recovery, and definitely less destructive to the body.

The only thing is, those of us who have had radiation therapy, we are not normally acceptable candidates for the robot due to all the scarring and potential bleed out issues.

Then, leading up to the surgery, this is where my stomach turned.  Merrick’s doctor had never performed the robotic surgery for the mitral valve.  He would be the first for her.  And then, in dramatic fashion, as she practices with the simulator, she repeatedly kills her patient with maneuver mistakes.  There is a back story with the doctor’s sister having died from lymphoma five years earlier.  The patient decides that he wants someone else to perform the surgery.  When it is decided that his original doctor is to perform the surgery, she has to find a hospital nearby where she is currently located, to perform the surgery via telecom to the robot from another hospital’s surgery suite.  All the while, she has her child with her as they were about to attend a school conference.  The doctor performs the surgery, of course causing a tear of the heart leading to bleeding, but then saves the day.  And is then arrested by the police, with her son, for trespassing.

Merrick did survive, but then again, nothing post op had been discussed, and that is a major issue.  Many survivors have passed away, surviving from the surgery itself, only to suffer a setback due to unsuspected infections.

Bottom line, Hollywood and NBC, you blew it.  You had the chance to make a major difference for millions of patients.  But then again, given the quality of the show, and the ratings, the episode will probably not reach that many to make a difference anyway.

Too Candid Of A Camera?


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You want to talk about tearing a wall down.

It was discussed on many news networks of a patient being awarded $500,000 because of a recording of the medical personnel involved in his care revealed that they were less than flattering about himself and the procedure he was undergoing.  To be honest, I am shaking my head at this one.  In fact, I am not really sure where to start.  So, I guess I will just give the summary.

The patient, who is never identified in the lawsuit, decided to use his smartphone to record post-op conversations for his release and any other needs.  What he got, quite honestly was more than his colon could take.

Anyone, myself included, who has ever had to undergo a colonoscopy, or any procedure that requires sedation or deeper anesthesia, expects there to be some cognitive issues, whether it be thinking or memory, as you come out of the fog.  And that is why it is normally required that you have some sort of guardian, a responsible party, to sign your release following the procedure.  Normally, that person is a family member, because if there is any “positive” news (the kind of thing that is actually negative to hear), that person is also there for support.  But when that option is not available, you have simply an “acquaintance”, who simply gets notified that you have recovered well enough to be released to someone who is not three sheets to the wind recovering from “la la land.”

Many times, it happens that the doctor will come by to the recovery area, and even though the patient is awake, will begin to discuss the preliminary results or finding even though the likelihood is that the patient will have no recollection.  So what is a patient to do?

Well, one patient had the idea to use his smartphone to record the conversation in just such a case.  In many cases, the patient actually puts their belongings inside of a plastic bag, which will actually accompany the patient to the procedural room.  But instead of hitting the record button during recovery, the patient actually hit “record” prior to heading for the colonoscopy.

We have all seen the television shows from M*A*S*H to ER, Emergency to Grey’s Anatomy.  We all expect there to be conversation inside of the surgery suite.  Topics ranged from entertainment to social status, to perhaps even actual conversation about the procedure itself.  I remember going in for my heart surgery, and the surgeon was actually listening to hard rock music before I was even anesthetized.

Intentional or not, this patient received more than an earful, for pressing “record” before he was expecting to.  Of course for that, he is $500,000 richer, and I am certain that those of us who regularly have procedures that we are anesthetized for, will be under scrutiny, and now having to answer to the question (have your turned your cell phone off) prior to the procedure.

Though my feelings are mixed about this lawsuit, my feelings are mixed about the situation itself.

It turns out the patient was actually humiliated verbally by the anesthesiologist and other personnel, prior to, and during the actual procedure.  The anesthesiologist expressed annoyance with the patient during sedation, enough to harass the sedated patient by saying to the sedated patient that he wanted to punch the patient in the face for the discussion during pre-op.  Comments were made about the way the patient had fears about the procedure, and then of course countless inappropriate insults.  Of course this behavior did not belong in this situation.  And had the patient not recorded the procedure, he… we would have been none the wiser.

I am sure that an incident like this does not happen often.  But seriously, as a patient myself, who has to plead, for the benefit of the person who has to try and put an IV into my chemotherapy destroyed veins, I do not expect to be ridiculed for being a baby for getting stressed out after the 7th or 8th attempt of getting the needle into my vein.  Or perhaps for making sure that doctors and nurses respect my knowledge of the delicate issues that revolve around my cancer survivorship, my life depends on it.  Because of my complicated immune system, if preventative antibiotics are not considered, my risk of not surviving even the most routine of a procedure are high.  There are certain things that can never be done to me because of chemo and radiation damage such as giving me pure oxygen.  I would be mortified knowing that my reward for trying to make sure that those involved in my care, took all the steps necessary, was to end up being mocked.

Should this incident have happened?  Absolutely not.  In fact, I even question the smartphone recording prior to the procedure.  After all, nearly everyone these days of Youtube and Instagram want 15 minutes of fame.  Was it worthy of a $500,000 award?  No.  Should those involved have been punished?  Absolutely.

Will it affect me, my confidence, as my annual testing for my long term cancer survivor issues will be coming around shortly?  I want to say not.  In fact, I cannot afford to think otherwise.  I have a lot of serious issues.  I need to have the confidence in my team that is treating me.  But if I am being honest, it will be at least a blip on my radar.

Adding A New Tool To Math


I have a unique situation with my children.  We live more than a thousand miles apart.  But from the day that their mother and I officially separated, I knew communication would be an important factor to maintaining the father/daughter relationship as they grow.

Unlike my childhood, when my parents split up, my father lived fairly local.  But there were choices that he made, and long story short, his visits eventually became less frequent, phone calls eventually faded, holidays and birthdays no longer mattered.  Again, this was a choice that he made.  And this was in spite of him living locally.

But here in the 21st century, technology has enabled our society with a tremendous tool to communicate back and forth, more valuable than the telephone, because video images, in real time, allow us to now have conversations face to face with each other, no matter where we are.  Programs like Skype, Tango, Oovoo, and the popular Facetime, allow us to talk, see smiles, share tears, experience sincerity and other emotions.  Having experienced the communications issue with my father growing up, I knew this would be a critical component when it came to a custody agreement.

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So on a daily basis, on occasion more than once a day, I speak, and see, both my daughters in between the times they visit with me.  I say more than once a day, because besides the nightly “miss you” and “love you”, we have found another way to keep our relationship in tact, and my value as their father.  Just as I did when I was in the home before the separation, I was the parent that helped with homework and studying.  And with Facetime, I am able to continue this, along with using internet tools provided by the schools.  Just as I did when I was in the home before the separation, I am, continue to be, and will always be involved in my daughters’ educations.

But technology has provided to be even more valuable than that.  Recently, one of my daughters has been having an issue with one of her subjects.  And in spite of my help, still seems to struggle.  I have been reaching out repeatedly to their teachers and guidance counselor for help, tutors, anyone who could help my daughter.  Unfortunately, the school district no longer refers tutors as procedures do not allow.  I am guessing it has something to do with a litigious reason, somebody complained, sued, and now no student can get help.

Enter my world of Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, and the internet, a fellow survivor that I am frequently in contact with, was aware of my plight with my daughter’s math situation.  She spoke with her daughter who is in a grade several years further, and offered to tutor my daughter, from 2/3 of the way across the country, via Facetime.  And so, having access to the math program, the lessons for the week, and a planned quiz, the first tutor session resulted in a 95% score on that quiz.  In what can be equated to a digital penpal, my daughter is showing hope again for a course that she knew she was struggling with, and would have to face even more difficulties next year.

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It is one thing to not be able to provide help locally, but totally amazing that from one of my personal worlds, I have been able to find help in dealing with another.  Because of a friend, who I had only known through a support group for long term survivors of the same cancer I have survived, and only recently physically meant, my daughter’s education is now going to take a huge turn in a positive direction.

And I am fairly certain, my friend’s daughter, along with her other children are good kids.  And I would not doubt it, given the nature of both my daughters, and my friend’s children, that thanks to Facetime, more than just an educational relationship will develop.  Like I said, in the day of technology, this is the new version of being a “penpal.”

I am thankful to my friend for allowing this to happen.  We have both been through our individual experiences with our cancer survivorship, and other physical issues not related.  But with her kindness and thoughtfulness, it enabled me to provide another level of assistance in my daughter’s education.

Thank you.

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