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A Call For A New Protocol


This one is for you my friend…

While the Affordable Care Act goes a long way for protecting cancer patients and survivors with its protection against pre-existing conditions, there is one issue that is not even being conceived.

When we undergo our cancer treatments, we are subject to multiple blood tests to see if our bodies are capable of handling the toxins that are sent through our veins or body, whether chemical or radiation. If our levels are too low, treatments are either reduced or delayed until our numbers are better. This is a good thing. As a patient, you want to be able tolerate the treatments, receive the maximum benefit of the treatment, to ensure the treatment results in remission, a cure.

So great, we check the bloodwork, but what about the rest of the body? What protocol is there for following up body organs possibly affected by either chemotherapy or radiation? Sure, there is most likely a baseline study done prior to the beginning of treatments, but after that, when is the next scan of the body planned? Probably not until months after treatments end. But by then, it could be too late. I received several toxic drugs and radiation. I am going to refer to one of the drugs I was given. Now for the record, as I have spoken before about my cardiac issues having been provoked by radiation damage, I do have valve issues that have been caused by either radiation, or this particular drug. I will talk about other chemotherapeutic drugs in other posts. But for this one, I want to talk about an Anthracyclene, called Adriamyacin.

First, understand this, Adriamyacin was a critical component in my cure of Hodgkin’s Lymphoma years ago. It is very successful in treating Hodgkin’s. However, for some patients, and low numbers are often quoted, the drug is lethal and difficult to handle. Surveillance is critical during its administration, yet it is not given that priority because of the low number of patients affected. My argument is this, if you know that the drug has the potential to damage the heart, especially when it comes to young children or adults who may be smaller than the average patient, why would doctors choose not to pay more attention to the cardiac risks of their patients? I have a solution which I will get to in the end of this post, but first, I need you to understand Adriamyacin.

Anthracyclene drugs are Adriamyacin, Doxorubicin, Daunorubicin, Daunomycin, Cerubidine, Idarubicin, Idamycin, Mitoxantrone, Novantone, Epirubicin. These drugs are known to weaken the heart muscle in a diagnosis called cardiomyopathy, lead to arrhythmias, valve stenosis, scarring or some other coronary artery disease. These issues can lead to heart attacks or even congestive heart failure. Factors that play a role on the possibility of these effects are age, total dose of the drug, if radiation involved, and any other drugs that affect the heart used.

So, how do we use a drug that is extremely successful in curing Hodgkin’s, and prevent it from doing the damage to the heart? Simple, just as we do routine bloodwork, I am making the recommendation for mandatory echocardiograms or MUGA scans at the least, mid-way through treatments. Not just at the beginning, and three months after treatments end, but at the least, mid-way, so that if damage does begin to show, treatment can be changed to something that will not lead to any patient dying. Even if this protocol saves just one life, that echocardiogram is a small price to pay to prevent the loss of a life or the costs associated with extreme lifesaving measures.

I lost a friend, a fellow Hodgkin’s survivor because there was nothing in place to determine that the Adriamycin had damaged his heart during the treatments. Like me, he never complained during his treatments about how he was feeling, even if the doctor was specific in questioning, nothing was going to stand in the way of getting through treatments. Chemo is supposed to make you feel like shit. We should not have to repeat it. But had the doctor ordered a simple echocardiogram or MUGA scan, I cannot say for certainty that would have prevented his demise, but it certainly would have identified the cardiac issue sooner, than later.

Do not misunderstand me, the drug is a good drug for curing Hodgkin’s. But even the small risk of a fatal side effect warrants the screening tool of a simple echocardiogram or Muga scan at the least mid-way through treatments. There are other drugs that could be used, though this one is definitely one of the best. But surveillance is necessary.

So here are two things I would like you, a follower of “Paul’s Heart” to do, in memory of my friend:

1) Pay attention to symptoms, and speak out = shortness of breath, dizziness, fatigue, chest pain, heartbeat issues, swollen feet and legs, coughing and wheezing (yes, even though you think coughing would be pulmonary related, it is a major symptom of congestive heart failure). When going through treatment, it is one thing to be tough, another to be foolish

2) This information must be made public and it will start here. Please forward this post, “share” it on Facebook, Twitter, any media. Forward it to news outlets to their health departments.

I do need to give recognition for some of the information that I supplied here, and it comes from the Children’s Oncology Group (link is listed on the cover page of this site). But most importantly, I need my friend to know, I will do all that I can to prevent someone else from having to go through the same fate.

The Confluence


A confluence is an intersection where two or more objects, often times rivers, come together. In Pittsburg, there are three rivers that do this, hence the Steelers footbal stadium is called “Three Rivers Stadium.” Where these three rivers join together can be quite turbulent. Every so many winters, those of us in the northeast hear of a storm system, rather two or more systems that with the perfect timing come together to produce a super storm of major precipitation. The elements of cold weather and precipitation produce snow in feet, not inches. Another example of a confluence could be a traffic intersection. Imagine the carnage of an intersection with no traffic control, automobiles coming from four different directions, no stop signs or traffic signals. You get the idea… that these intersections can be quite chaotic, full of energy, and often create a lot of stress.

The truth is, you can walk down any street, even be standing next to a co-worker and never know the turbulence that another person is feeling, or what “confluence” they might be dealing with. Over the years, I have been known to carry so much on my shoulders. The truth be told, I thrive on it. I am not saying it is a good thing at all. Certainly it is good for those that I am trying to help, but occasionally there is collateral damage to either those around me, or even to myself.

One branch of my confluence begins with caring for my father, battling a very serious and aggressive cancer. I have always said that I am a better patient because I can deal with things that are thrown my way. But I am helpless when watching others go through their own.

Then another branch is my job. I work for a large company who “merged” several years ago, and its merger effects are beginning to be felt in the form of job reductions. My department is seeing a downsizing of ridiculous proportions and the building I work in is one of the casualties. I am fortunate on one hand, but there will be an unfortunate factor that will rise up again. I have been able to do my daily tasks with my health restrictions because I accepted a role that was within those restrictions. After ten years, I will no longer have that net under me. I will return to a position, where management will struggle with my assignments to comply with the ADA (American With Disabilities Act), and my co-workers unaware of my restrictions, will most likely return to the petty “why does Paul get away with not having to…”. This was an awful environment to work in back then, and I do not look forward to working in it again.

The most prominent though of all the branches of my confluence is my pending divorce. There are no signs of an imminent ending which is unfortunate. Both of us have clearly stated we want it over, yet both attorneys have done nothing to draw us into some stage of mediation. We continue to live in the house together until the divorce is done, though clearly by our positioning in the house, we are separated. There are not many possessions for us to split up, and really not much else to discuss, other than the most important factor, the custody of our children.

It is now eight months since I made the decision to file for divorce. And without getting into the nuts and bolts of everything, which I will continue not to discuss publicly, I will address one thing as I know there are some who are “spying” on my blog. I do not address my ex-to-be as anything less than my daughters’ mother as she is to be respected as such. My children do not hear any conversations criticizing her because I do not entertain those conversations. I am not proud of the situation I am in, but I am disappointed in the actions of some.

You see, in the middle of a wonderful weekend with my daughters, packed with all kinds of activities, one of my daughters reveals that she has overheard “mean” things about me. She was not in the room when these things were being said, but she was within earshot. I do not have any problem with anyone who wants to offer ridicule of me with the limited information they possess, but I do when it is affecting my children. I love my daughters and they love me. You cannot take that away from me, or them. But if you are one of those “spies” that I made reference to, please take this to heart, save your ridicule of me when my daughters cannot possibly hear you. If you want to hurt me, go for it. But I will not continue to let you hurt my daughters. I spend every moment with my daughters that I can, with everything I have going on, letting them know how much I love them, and doing things with them. This weekend so far has been awesome and filled with activity. They are slowly getting used to the idea what it will be like when we are no longer living in the same house, and that both of their parents will remain an active part of their lives, perhaps having double the experiences that they otherwise would have had.

As a raft drifting into the confluence of the three rivers in Pittsburgh, I am dealing with all of the various currents I am facing. Eventually, I will come out in calmer waters. I have charted my course to steer me through those currents and I will get through this.

If I Had Only Known…


Growing up, I had this uncle with a very warped sense of humor. Back in the 60’s and 70’s no doubt we were all exposed to the “they will do it just once” and our parents let us find things out on our own, such as touching the burner on a stove when it was hot. The thought being that the really smart ones would learn from that scorching mistake in judgement.

Around eight years of age, I pondered what would happen if I held on to the prongs of an electrical cord and plugged it into the wall. My uncle told me he did not know and I should try it if I was curious. After all, I did know that the cord was connected to a lamp, so I knew it could turn the lamp on. And then of course there was Uncle Fester on the TV who could light up a bulb by just sticking it in his mouth.

Fortunately, there was nothing in the path of my tragectory as I was thrown backwards from the jolt of 110 volts going through my hand. I hated that uncle ever since. He could have just said “no” and in theory I would have listened.

Then why is it, that as adults, we have such a hard time, knowing better with our judgements if we are to guide our younger family members. A patient recently diagnosed with lung cancer seemed genuinely shocked to find out, when asking the doctor what could have caused the lung cancer, that the answer was smoking. The patient wanted to present any other kind of explaination. Major denial.

My generation had the subject “Health” in school. And during the elementary years, a good portion of the class was committed to “smoking”. Looking back, it was really a harsh class. As part of the demonstration, an actual, preserved lung was displayed, that was riddled with emphasema. It was awful. Compared to the healthy lung which was not black and hardened, clearly the message was to get to the children, and then the hope was that the children would convince their family members to quit. Emphasema, COPD, and lung cancer… three major reasons to never start smoking, or to quit if you can.

And that is the tricky part, if you can. Cigarettes are one of the most addicting habits one can ever be trapped with, physically addicting and the cigarette companies know that. So, when someone has been smoking for decades, is most likely going to be unable to quit, or restart. And no matter who brings the message home, that person is practically powerless to do anything about it.

I did come home from elementary school one year, following the anti-smoking campaign lesson. And I begged both my mother and father to quit, and why. I got several reasons why they could not, one of which was, “nothing will happen to me”. And that is what happens to people when they make that choice to start smoking. They do not believe that they will be the ones to get cancer.

Funny… I thought the same thing too. But no one knows what caused my Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. With lung cancer, it is usually an obvious answer.

It is sad really, to hear these words from someone who has just been diagnosed with lung cancer, “If I had only known…” I guarantee both my parents knew, but just as I held onto the prongs of the cord, I did not listen.

It is a horrible thing to watch anyone die. But even worse when it is from something that could have been prevented. And the sad thing is, there are those in my life, that my children will see smoking, and feel sorrow for them, because their grandfather is battling lung cancer from smoking. And that is what they will remember about him, and worry about anyone else that is smoking.

Smoking is not just a bad habit, it is a deadly habit. If you do not smoke, do not start. If you do smoke, quit now.

And here are a few other things I can let you know now, you can prevent later:
Sun burns skin – wear sunblock
Fast Food burgers – not good for your cholesterol
Clean hands – less germs spread
Reality TV… not very real

Now you know.

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